losing it..

do you ever feel as if you are waging a battle and you are losing as if everything you want is slipping threw your fingers like sand. and you wonder how you can pick up the pieces to get threw it or even IF you will survive it? when the shear thought of a event sends waves of panic threw your body . YUP i m there. I dont know how or what to say to make it better either. i feel like im in a tail spin and im losing it. and all i can do is watch it crash and burn. have you ever wanted to hold on to something so bad that you feel like you are spending all the time you have thinking about the whats to come and you cant even enjoy the moment. knowing your whole world just may very well come crashing down around you and you are goin to be alone..