Monday, June 1, 2009
making my home sing monday
Im so sad to say goodbye to our weekend, My home is singing but my heart is not, I managed to get a great deal of laundry folded and put away, and the majority of my other house work done. But I am just in a funk.. I didn't anticipate that when we buried Micah I would be this sad, I buried my stillborn son(Matthew) seven years ago and while i often think about the what ifs my heart had healed as much as it could and i thru my self in to raising my two kids then when we lost Micah, it seems all those patched places in my heart were rippped open, I know I am suffering from another case of Post Pardem Depression, I had it with Matthew , I had it with my daughter Miah and now with Micah.. I dont know why but I didnt have it with Gus. All I want to do is sleep and crochet, I dont seem to care about anything anymore except meeting my kids immediate needs . My hubby doesnt understand why I m so upset. Along with the other unessicary drama with his EX wife.. so my home may be singing but my heart is broken in to a million little pieces . So check out Moms the Word for more Home Singing Blogs
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Hi there. I'm so sorry that you are in this funk right now. I'll be praying for you, friend!
ReplyDeleteMistie, I am so sorry you are struggling and hurting right now!
ReplyDeleteWhen I had my m/c (in my fourth month) I was very sad, just normal sadness like anybody would.
But when we lost our foster son I grieved for five months. I felt very sad inside and missed him so much (we were supposed to be able to adopt him but it fell through). I cried and just felt a big hole inside my heart. Didn't feel like "myself" at all.
But I found that if I just accepted how I felt and didn't analyze it, it helped me to cope with feeling down. Grief doesn't have a time limit.
In your case, however, you have pregnancy hormones involved, if it's PPD, right? So maybe you would feel better if you visited a doctor and he could give you something to help the wild crazy hormonal ride as your body adjusts to not being pregnant?
We can cope with our grief alot easier if we don't have to deal with our bodies being hormonal too.
(((Hugs))) my friend, and I'm glad you joined us today! Hope you feel better soon!
I'm so sorry!! I don't know how you are making it though the day! Just thinking about what you are going through makes it hard for me to breath. Prayers to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteThe verse that is speaking to me this week is John 10:10
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
Praying for God to grant you comfort and strength, so you can fill yourself with joy.
ReplyDeleteOh I am so sorry to hear that. I can't even begin to imagine the pain and the sorrow of losing a child. May your Heavenly Father continue to work in your heart and life to bring healing. May you know just how much He loves you. But also may you know that He has not forgotten you. He is right there. I pray that you sense His presence and His love. May it penetrate deep into your soul and give you strength to go on. Hang in there! God's not finished with you yet!
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